Hello everyone!
Like most of you know, I was in Finland a week ago. I had amazing time, met all my favourite people, went to places I love and obviously went a lot to the sauna. When I arrived Finland it was absolutely weird to be there and to be honest, I was even scared. But routines came back quite fast and in days it felt like home again.
But well. I came back to Leeuwarden and for me it is really hard to admit, but I felt homesick. A lot. Since I've been teenager I've been traveling and been quite much away from home. Actually before this I only felt homesick few times when I moved to Tampere. But I've never felt this abroad, so it was a bit of a shock. Sure I love my time here and people are amazing but for some reason the homesickness hit me this time. Hard.
As a rational person I forced myself to believe it is gonna go away, everything is fine and I really can't do anything to this. I called my family and boyfriend and told the situation to them but still I kept feeling really bad and actually got even a bit sick (might be also our house which is probably covered with diseases, mice, mold and ghosts). And somehow I wanted to stay in my bad feeling. Somehow feeling grumpy and whining about it to my family felt normal thing to do. I wanted to stay in my negative bubble so I didn't have to face the fact I am here and I'm wasting my time by being a grumpy fuck.
But today, I woke up and got urge to go for a walk. Weather was absolutely gorgeous and thought that maybe tiny walk would cheer my up. And boy it did!
I walked and suddenly I started smiling. I found new places in Leeuwarden I've never seen. Seemed like everyone was smiling and greeting me. A nice girl in the shop was helping me and doing amazing customer service. I went to the park and had a conversation with a lady who had a dog exactly we had when I was a kid. I kicked a ball for a tiny boy who was playing football and his ball got away to my direction. A old man with clogs walked by and greeted cheerfully. For the first time since I got back from Finland I felt like this was home again.
And what was the secret ingredient for me to heal my homesickness? Attitude.
In life you can't decide everything and write everything ready for yourself like in films. But what you can do, is to relax and think positive. I know that sounds cliché as fuck, but it just happens to be true. And especially for us Finns that is one thing that seems to be extremely hard to understand. It is up to yourself how you see things. If you keep thinking this is shit, for sure it becomes shit. If you keep thinking you fail, for sure you will fail. If you think it's gonna be okay and you concentrate on the good things, suddenly it is not that bad at the end.
I know I'm often horribly negative person and I will stop it now. Sure we all have bad times and sometimes things really are going bad. But when there is at least a little light, go for it! I dare everyone to join in my challenge of finding the positive in things and trying not to spread that negativeness around so much. Stay positive people and please, think about those unicorns.
- Uppa
PS: I also saw shitloads of GOATS today. That if something cheered me up. Go goats!
